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Jackson called his nursery leader “honey” on Sunday. Do you think I should be jealous?
Sunday, I got a small answer to my fast. I have been having lots of anxiety about this baby coming. I never had any anxiety with Jackson and I attribute that to the fact that I was clueless as to what I was getting myself into, having never been around a baby before. With this baby, I worry, worry, worry. I worried a lot about losing the baby or if she would be healthy, but after my 20 week ultrasound, I could stop worrying about that. Now I worry about if I will be able to handle two kids. I worry if Jackson is going to fall behind or feel left out if I am preoccupied with a baby. I worry about her personality-will she be overly needy, sensitive, colicky, a poor sleeper, or a picky eater? I worry about gas prices going up, and that they raised the state sales tax on food and how that will affect my beautifully orchestrated budget. I worry about more expenses coming up (like broken washing machines and car repairs) that I can’t predict and how that will affect my budget. Will we be able to afford another kid like I think we can? I worry about having a girl and if everything I learned with Jackson won’t be applicable to a little girl. I worry that she won’t like the name we pick out for her. I worry that I am going to raise her to be too boyish or that she will be way too girly. I worry that I won’t like having a little girl. I worry if she will like me.
Obviously, worries are usually not rational, but that doesn’t mean they don’t happen or can’t affect you. So, I was fasting in general that we could get this baby here and that everything would be okay. (By the way, when I say fast, I mean a pregnant lady modified fast.) My answer came during Sunday school when I asked if I could hold my friend’s baby. She is 2.5 months old. I held her for most of Sunday school. The entire time she cooed and smiled at Colin and I. She was so incredibly and wonderfully sweet. A very calming and reassuring feeling came over me that it is going to be okay. I am going to love my little girl. It’s going to be a challenge, but I can handle it.
Mary Cassatt, Sleepy Baby
2 comments:
I'm sorry that you are going through this! I did the same thing, but it was when I was engaged. Poor Dan went through the ringer with all of my "what if's" about marriage. There is no way you will have that list all in one baby :) Also, God will not give you a baby that you won't be able to handle. You'll be fine! My mom had all very different children, and we somehow all love eachother, most of the time ;)
So sweet n inspiring, tnx for sharing. BTW may I inquire as to how u do ur preg-modified fast. its a marvelous idea...do u give up certain fds n drinks for 2 meals?
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